Today I am feeling grateful.
Recently there have been events that I felt had the potential to change the course of our 'plan.' I say 'plan' simply because I am well acquainted enough with life to know that the adages are true, that
a) God laughs when we make plans and
b) Life IS what happens when you're busy making other plans.
Regardless of that fact, I have found that I now refer to our plans as 'general outlines' but it still remains they are plans and that I get nervous when I spot an apparent monkey wrench on the horizon.
So when I saw an impending wrench on the horizon, I began to get anxious. I could feel the anxiety rising and even more, consuming all my thoughts. Eventually it led to an outburst and then to a realization: Everything would be okay.
Perhaps, yet the fact remains I realized something incredibly important. On the day that I married Matt, we said to each other, and have continued to say to each other, that as long as we have each other, it will be alright. And while I wholeheartedly believed those words each time I said them, the truth of that statement became real for me this week.
I genuinely believe that moments like I've had this week are in our lives, not just to give us premature grey hair, or five pounds from stress eating and Icee consumption, but to cement the foundations of our faith and trust in the ones we love and to pull into sharp focus our real priorities - what truly matters in the grand scheme of things.
Therefore, while it is still hard to say, I am grateful for this experience, and what it has taught me about myself. I am grateful for my husband and his support and understanding, and I am grateful to God, that while I know these 'teaching moments' may continue (much to my stress eating dismay) that they make life better, not worse, because He's given me a partner - a helpmate - and the wherewithal to not only handle it, but to enjoy the ride.